Tuesday, October 28, 2008
I wana save for a Honda Jazz!! =)
Why I like this car?
Hmmm. Mainly because it is cheaper than most cars which have the sporty look. This is a car which have many room for modifications, be it in the engines or exterior. The exterior could be modified to this extent shown above. The wheels, brake, spoiler, bumper interior seats etc. Yea!~. That's why I'm a fan of Honda Jazz! I really hope to get it soon probably in my uni days. Haha. By then probably a newer model will be out.. But I don't mind, as long as I can have it! Haha!
Of cause this car is not my dream car lah. To be realistic, this car is right for me, considering my economical status.. lol. Of cause I have a more abitious dream, which is to drive my favourite Mercedes SLK , BMW Z3, Lamborghini, Audi R8 or the Audi Convertible etc. Haha.. Those cars hmm... Have to wait till I earn enough bah.. haha
8:05 AM
~My Melancholy~
Saturday, October 25, 2008
24.10.2008 was one of the Lan outing organised by my colleagues from NSSC. It was a real success on that day as many of us turned up to play. A close approximation of 20 people were present! It's a real big group man.
20 of us playing Counter Strike. It was really freaking crazy as we were split into 10 each, CT and TERRORIST. It's really exciting as there are so many people in the map and we had great time shooting and killing each other in the virtual world. Each of us tried our best to show off our skills in gaming. Some of the top "stars" are Eric, Jason Loke and Isaac... They are really crazy. Aiming were freaking accurate. Haha. Too bad I'm not a guy who can play CS really well so my scores isn't that good... Too embarrassing. But luckily I wasn't ranked the last. =D
After like almost 2.5 hrs of CS, some of us switched to playing DOTA. A game which I had yearned to play with my colleagues. I was quite confident unlike in the past as I had played the game quite often those few days before this outing. haha! Chose LION. Miraculously, I got a killing spree with my own effort. But it was ended in a short while as the opposite team started to gang me. Oh my... But nevertheless, I got another Killing spree title for myself. haha! Considering my playing skills, it's actually a small achievement to be proud for that night. HAHA! My kill ratio was 9:3. Not bad...
Really enjoyed myself that night thought the outing was indoors. Hopefully one day they would organise something outdoors. =D
While walking down the escalator at Dhoby Ghaut MRT STATION NEL, we (5 of us) saw the arcade and decided to play for awhile. Played the basketball game. Was quite crappy as I'm not a basketball player. Haha. Still me and Isaac managed to play up to Stage3. Haha! nice try... It was tiring due to the laughter as both of us were too syncronised that we threw the basket ball at the same time. Both of the balls hit each other and none got through the basket. Joke isn't it...
Later we went to play the drum game. The one which sound like chinese drum. That game can be found in psp game collection. That is not an easy game man! lol Psp is only abt pressing the buttons but for the arcade version, its madlike. Haha, embarassingly my rhytms were out of pace.haha
20 of us playing Counter Strike. It was really freaking crazy as we were split into 10 each, CT and TERRORIST. It's really exciting as there are so many people in the map and we had great time shooting and killing each other in the virtual world. Each of us tried our best to show off our skills in gaming. Some of the top "stars" are Eric, Jason Loke and Isaac... They are really crazy. Aiming were freaking accurate. Haha. Too bad I'm not a guy who can play CS really well so my scores isn't that good... Too embarrassing. But luckily I wasn't ranked the last. =D
After like almost 2.5 hrs of CS, some of us switched to playing DOTA. A game which I had yearned to play with my colleagues. I was quite confident unlike in the past as I had played the game quite often those few days before this outing. haha! Chose LION. Miraculously, I got a killing spree with my own effort. But it was ended in a short while as the opposite team started to gang me. Oh my... But nevertheless, I got another Killing spree title for myself. haha! Considering my playing skills, it's actually a small achievement to be proud for that night. HAHA! My kill ratio was 9:3. Not bad...
Really enjoyed myself that night thought the outing was indoors. Hopefully one day they would organise something outdoors. =D
While walking down the escalator at Dhoby Ghaut MRT STATION NEL, we (5 of us) saw the arcade and decided to play for awhile. Played the basketball game. Was quite crappy as I'm not a basketball player. Haha. Still me and Isaac managed to play up to Stage3. Haha! nice try... It was tiring due to the laughter as both of us were too syncronised that we threw the basket ball at the same time. Both of the balls hit each other and none got through the basket. Joke isn't it...
Later we went to play the drum game. The one which sound like chinese drum. That game can be found in psp game collection. That is not an easy game man! lol Psp is only abt pressing the buttons but for the arcade version, its madlike. Haha, embarassingly my rhytms were out of pace.haha
11:10 PM
~My Melancholy~
Thursday, October 23, 2008
It has been a long time since i blogged. Many things had happened all this while when I was "missing". Many changes had happened to my lifestyle, my thoughs and behaviour. I would say, this is a growing up process.
Many times I had complained to my good friends about my life in the office. I felt that it's a tough life to lead. There are many political incidents, be it internally or within branches. It makes me felt so screwed up as those incidences did affect me in various ways. Sometimes, I did question my ability as I felt so lost. Why am I feeling this way? I've totally lost confidence in myself. Many crude remarks had be thrown at me randomly, regarding the way I did my stuffs and the way I handle people. Am I really that lousy? I've been asking myself for a very long time. It really hurts to hear these kind of remarks being hurled at you everytime.
Day by day, I tried to find answers to my question. I've asked many people. Why are they treating me in this manner? Why are they always blaming me for the things which I think it's not really important and serious. Am I easily pushed around? Many always say that in the outside world, the Theme "Survival of The Fittest" always comes into play. I've seen it. Right in front of my eyes. The society is cruel and cold blooded.
Told my dad about these incidents unwillingly. He gave me some advices and also reprimanded me for being so naive, and stubborn. In this society, the wrongs will not always be wrong. And vice versa. As long as you are the Strongest, Right or Wrong does not matter anymore. Thus crafty minds always succeeds. Certificates do not weigh as much anymore, unlike in school where results counts.
Other then that, EQ is also another quality that is very important. A person with high EQ will be able to handle stress, and in turn he would be able to rise above the rest. This is reality. We have to accept it. That's why we will often see the "elites" winning these battles.
As for me, I'm more of an emotional person. It's because I understand how it feels to be looked down by others, or being bypassed. Nasty comments by those "winners" could be very hurting. Thus when I handle things, people will describe me as being too nice and will be "eaten" by others. This really set me thinking for very long. Is this how many people think? To win, we can forget about what others feel? Neglect their feelings even if they are your friends?
I guess I really have to accept the fact that in this evil world, there's no such thing as helpful soul around. Nothing. There will only be faceless souls around waiting to put on a different mask for different occasions. It somehow eventually equates friendly and helpful to evil motives. Such a shallow move.
To enter the working world, one has to blend in to fit into the society or he will be left out forever. People always say that in order to succeed, you have to be flexible and fast, and probably adding a little of craftiness. No choice. It's nothing wrong if no one is hurt and friends and/or family members are not being hurt. That's the only way to keep our conscience clear of guilt (if the person actually has conscience).
I admit. It's tough to grow up. Having to face these obstacles all at one go right after finishing my A levels is not an easy task. But these are the life skills that could not be found in books. What I know now is to endure, endure and endure.......
Many times I had complained to my good friends about my life in the office. I felt that it's a tough life to lead. There are many political incidents, be it internally or within branches. It makes me felt so screwed up as those incidences did affect me in various ways. Sometimes, I did question my ability as I felt so lost. Why am I feeling this way? I've totally lost confidence in myself. Many crude remarks had be thrown at me randomly, regarding the way I did my stuffs and the way I handle people. Am I really that lousy? I've been asking myself for a very long time. It really hurts to hear these kind of remarks being hurled at you everytime.
Day by day, I tried to find answers to my question. I've asked many people. Why are they treating me in this manner? Why are they always blaming me for the things which I think it's not really important and serious. Am I easily pushed around? Many always say that in the outside world, the Theme "Survival of The Fittest" always comes into play. I've seen it. Right in front of my eyes. The society is cruel and cold blooded.
Told my dad about these incidents unwillingly. He gave me some advices and also reprimanded me for being so naive, and stubborn. In this society, the wrongs will not always be wrong. And vice versa. As long as you are the Strongest, Right or Wrong does not matter anymore. Thus crafty minds always succeeds. Certificates do not weigh as much anymore, unlike in school where results counts.
Other then that, EQ is also another quality that is very important. A person with high EQ will be able to handle stress, and in turn he would be able to rise above the rest. This is reality. We have to accept it. That's why we will often see the "elites" winning these battles.
As for me, I'm more of an emotional person. It's because I understand how it feels to be looked down by others, or being bypassed. Nasty comments by those "winners" could be very hurting. Thus when I handle things, people will describe me as being too nice and will be "eaten" by others. This really set me thinking for very long. Is this how many people think? To win, we can forget about what others feel? Neglect their feelings even if they are your friends?
I guess I really have to accept the fact that in this evil world, there's no such thing as helpful soul around. Nothing. There will only be faceless souls around waiting to put on a different mask for different occasions. It somehow eventually equates friendly and helpful to evil motives. Such a shallow move.
To enter the working world, one has to blend in to fit into the society or he will be left out forever. People always say that in order to succeed, you have to be flexible and fast, and probably adding a little of craftiness. No choice. It's nothing wrong if no one is hurt and friends and/or family members are not being hurt. That's the only way to keep our conscience clear of guilt (if the person actually has conscience).
I admit. It's tough to grow up. Having to face these obstacles all at one go right after finishing my A levels is not an easy task. But these are the life skills that could not be found in books. What I know now is to endure, endure and endure.......
11:31 PM
~My Melancholy~
